A wise woman once said, "This is gonna start being so different..." Indeed I need to work on closing off the past and begin laying the foundation for a new life. It's not that everything came crashing down - it was just the opposite. I flew. "You're flying, superman." I flew. This past semester was probably the best semester I have ever had and ever will have. I made so many friends and got to grow closer to older ones. I got to be a true friend to so many people. I got to just show love to everyone at King's. It was a blast - no doubt. Yet, college is over. School is done. It's closing time.
My mom was talking to me this morning. She told me that it is important that I begin looking for areas where I can make friends here. She knows me too well. My mom knows that in my sadness and heart that hurts and longs for all my friends in the US that I will bury myself in work, not even caring to look up or ask people how they are doing. If this were a movie, it would be the moment of caressing everything before leaving, as the lights slowly turn off. A slow build up of a ballad begins to linger in the background. I need to move on. I don't want to. My wallpaper right now is a picture of all the TKC peeps. Dang. I miss everyone so much. Everyone. I miss the Herald Towers, just walking the halls and stopping by rooms to see how my sisters are doing. Or coming home to the Erin, Matt, and Alex - Erin with his headphones on (one ear is always kept naked, though), Alex sprawled on the couch playing the economics rat race game, Matt just coming in with that slight bounce in his step and a bag of cookies in his hand. I miss Aliza's hugs. I miss Ashley and Mark's hellos and truly genuine questions of, "How are you doing?" and Mark's, "Hi, Mark" voice. I miss seeing Lechliter walk the halls with his distinct step. I miss Jon Hummel's constantly entertaining tricks. I miss Mike Toscano's hand snap. I miss the way Ricky looks when he gets so excited. I miss Emily's ever constant encouraging hug of a smile. I miss the way Alisa would come and sit with me in the lab for talks and our chipotle together times. I miss Kate's big smiling eyes. I miss Jarin's phone calls. I miss seeing Dilawar stalk the halls. I miss Jenny and Kristen and Tori and the way they would just be there for you no matter what. I miss Stephanie and Matt and their absolutely magnetic interaction with whoever is with them. I miss Lydia eating. I could go on and on...but like Dane Cook said, I just felt a tap on my shoulder and I turned around and "it's the world." And I'm about to cry already. Okay, fine, tears are welling up right now. "I did my best," - Dane Cook. Lol. Always good for a laugh, that DC.
Keep on smiling.
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RIP - Buddy Baker aka Animal Man
My mom was talking to me this morning. She told me that it is important that I begin looking for areas where I can make friends here. She knows me too well. My mom knows that in my sadness and heart that hurts and longs for all my friends in the US that I will bury myself in work, not even caring to look up or ask people how they are doing. If this were a movie, it would be the moment of caressing everything before leaving, as the lights slowly turn off. A slow build up of a ballad begins to linger in the background. I need to move on. I don't want to. My wallpaper right now is a picture of all the TKC peeps. Dang. I miss everyone so much. Everyone. I miss the Herald Towers, just walking the halls and stopping by rooms to see how my sisters are doing. Or coming home to the Erin, Matt, and Alex - Erin with his headphones on (one ear is always kept naked, though), Alex sprawled on the couch playing the economics rat race game, Matt just coming in with that slight bounce in his step and a bag of cookies in his hand. I miss Aliza's hugs. I miss Ashley and Mark's hellos and truly genuine questions of, "How are you doing?" and Mark's, "Hi, Mark" voice. I miss seeing Lechliter walk the halls with his distinct step. I miss Jon Hummel's constantly entertaining tricks. I miss Mike Toscano's hand snap. I miss the way Ricky looks when he gets so excited. I miss Emily's ever constant encouraging hug of a smile. I miss the way Alisa would come and sit with me in the lab for talks and our chipotle together times. I miss Kate's big smiling eyes. I miss Jarin's phone calls. I miss seeing Dilawar stalk the halls. I miss Jenny and Kristen and Tori and the way they would just be there for you no matter what. I miss Stephanie and Matt and their absolutely magnetic interaction with whoever is with them. I miss Lydia eating. I could go on and on...but like Dane Cook said, I just felt a tap on my shoulder and I turned around and "it's the world." And I'm about to cry already. Okay, fine, tears are welling up right now. "I did my best," - Dane Cook. Lol. Always good for a laugh, that DC.
Keep on smiling.
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RIP - Buddy Baker aka Animal Man
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