Eye of the storm?

Yes, as you've been noticing, there has been a regular lag between blogs. I've gone from a daily to a weekly to now a monthly. Hopefully I can get it back to at least a weekly blog. Anyway, right now I feel like i'm in the eye of a storm. Things have been quite crazy for me the past few weeks. I've not had much to complain about other than just being bombarded constantly with stuff. I can do it, don't get me wrong, I just get kind of tired putting out fires, so to speak. So now things have calmed down. But tomorrow is college camp. What? It's already tomorrow? Yeah. Hasn't hit me either. I don't know what to think. It's not a youth camp, heck, it's not a fall retreat. I don't know how to even think about this. See, here's the the thing...
Camps are either a ton of fun or a ton of just a lot of "alone time while others hang out with each other". Usually at Fall Retreats, I would have my camera, so even if I didn't get to talk to that many people, I still had my moments, not to mention that I knew that I was WORKING. I was the official photographer. Now, I'm not. I'm not gonig to be taking pics, I'm not going to be helping out, i'm not going to be counseling. I'm just going to be a camper. Should be fun. Supposedly. That's what I'm told. But here's the thing, will it be a fun time had by all, or will it just be a lot of seminars and me being by myself a lot? I need coffee. Man, if I get enough coffee in me, I'll be awake and in more of a socializing mood. I won't be so inhibited. Lol. Funny, huh?
I remember watching this one episode of Scrubs and Elliot said that "you know, deep down every woman still has that insecure teenager in them". I wonder if it's true for guys too? Like do we ever lose that feeling of insecurity? Do we ever feel confident enough to not rely on people for self worth or confident enough that seeing everyone hang out without you not phaze you? Shrugs. I don't know. I'm twenty-two already and I still haven't figured this whole "life" thing out. I don't think we're supposed to. After all, if we're supposed to figure life out, than it means that we're supposed to stop relying on God. No, we should always rely on Him. Can we say "Thy Will Be Done?" Or is it "My will be done". Like P.Eug said, "Do you work for God or does God work for you?"
So in a coconut shell, I don't know what's going to happen at college camp. It's gonig to rain, at least that's what the weather says. But it's going to be nice, I guess. All I ask is for some quiet times with some friends. That's all. You know? Like I just want to have a moment with each of my friends there, a moment that lets me know that our friendship moved forward. There are times I feel my friendships with everyone is stagnanting, or plateauing. Like, is our friendship getting any stronger, any deeper? I really want it to. I really want to reach the point where I know we're both comfortable with each other and not like that I'm annoying you or interrupting something. There's that teenager talking again.
There's my daily grind for the day. Dunkin Donuts Coffee is the best. Can you believe it's been probably more than a year and I can still smell the Dunkin Donuts on 32nd and 5th in my mind's nose?

I'm just here...writing a blog

So blogging. What is it? It's journaling? Is it thinking? Is it venting? I don't know. All I know is that I type really really fast. It is kind of funny watching how fast I can type. Souns like rain on an aluminum roof. Lol! Most people in the States would always say that I was too noisy in the classroom because I typed so fast and so loud. Man, I miss those days. But we can't keep dwelling on the past, we must KEEP MOVING FORWARD. Sigh. I liked Meet the Robinsons. I don't know why so many Christian reviewers online are bashing the film. It was so good. I mean, ther ewas so much Biblical truths in the film.
Let's see what else is going on? Yesterday was fun. I actually felt like I accomplished something and had fun doing it. I don't know. M aybe its because I didn't get so caught up in stuff and actually enjoyed the day that God gave me. It's interesting how if you focus on God in everything you do, you actually get a better view of things. Like I acknowledge that my skills here aren't really my own, but they are given to me by God. This life I live is a gift from God. Each good thing that happens in my life, even though painful at times, is a gift from God. God is just so amazing how he does that.
Right nwo I feel liek I need a restart in the mind. Or rather, I need a restart of a book. I'm tired of reading hte CS Lewis trilogy. I've been stuck on That Hideous Strength for over two months (given that I read Robinson Crusoe side by side with it for two weeks of it). I just, I don't konw, I want to read something new. I bought A Wrinkle In Time. Yeah, I know, far from what you'd consider a worthy follow up to Lewis. But it's supposed to be good and people tell me it's a fun read. So I'm going to giv eit a shot probably this weekend. I mean, how hard can it be? I bet I could finish that baby in a matter of a day. Maybe less. If Brad Meltzer can read the last harry potter book in five hours, I can get through A Wrinkle in Time in probably two. Who knows. Then there is the Stephen King book I got about his Dark Tower series. Looks creepy. Lol! But no, I'ts more a behind the scenes of his books. I like the way his mind works. It's so cool.
Work is going well. Is'nt it always? Correction. Serving God is great. I'm actually relizing more and more why I am here at Messiah. It's not so much work, it's more serving God and being able to watch Him work. That excitement is there. Sure, I could be earning a lot more money in, say, a Call Center (with my English), but why go there when I can serve God here. It's cool seeing how God is working, seeign lives changing. That's what else is so awesome! I can see it in the students here. I can see them really growing in Christ. All at different speeds and different maturity, but they are all growing! It's so awesome seeing them fired up about God and seeing them get this very God focus in life. How cool is that? You don't see that everyday, you don't hear testimonies about that everyday. It's just exciting!
Church is good too. I feel that I'm not as involved in ministry as I want to be, but I need to balance everything out. Here, let me list for you below everything I'm doing...

Serving God at Messiah
Communications Department
Video, Slideshows, Ads, Handouts, Fliers, etc
Event planning
Games and games coordinator; innovator
Greg Leader
Lead discipleship group once a week and check up on my guys to make sure they are
okay regularly.
Guest Chapel Speaker
Speak in Chapel twice a sem
ESL teacher (former)
Leadership Seminar teacher (will start again in Feb)
Serving God at Home
Clean the kitchen every night
Clean the bathroom once a week
Encourage the family by encouraging family times, movie times, etc
Serving God at Church
ChannelS
Overall editor and planner and coordinator
Y-Group Leader
Teach 1st & 2nd year high school Sunday School twice or three times a month
Yacies Friday
Bible Study (may be leading a few of them soon)
Call Center Ministry
Monday early early early morning service for Call Center workers
Go to encourage them and will possibly be speaking there soon
Serving God in TKC
Checking up on friends as best as I can, try to encourage them as much as possible
Recently did the Robinson Crusoe study notes thingy
Serving God through Training My Abilities
Reading a lot of books to enhance what I know in literature, education, and business
Learning new technology through research

So there, that's pretty much what I do. That's my life. It's busy. But it's fulfilling and satisfying.So there you go.