Eye of the storm?

Yes, as you've been noticing, there has been a regular lag between blogs. I've gone from a daily to a weekly to now a monthly. Hopefully I can get it back to at least a weekly blog. Anyway, right now I feel like i'm in the eye of a storm. Things have been quite crazy for me the past few weeks. I've not had much to complain about other than just being bombarded constantly with stuff. I can do it, don't get me wrong, I just get kind of tired putting out fires, so to speak. So now things have calmed down. But tomorrow is college camp. What? It's already tomorrow? Yeah. Hasn't hit me either. I don't know what to think. It's not a youth camp, heck, it's not a fall retreat. I don't know how to even think about this. See, here's the the thing...
Camps are either a ton of fun or a ton of just a lot of "alone time while others hang out with each other". Usually at Fall Retreats, I would have my camera, so even if I didn't get to talk to that many people, I still had my moments, not to mention that I knew that I was WORKING. I was the official photographer. Now, I'm not. I'm not gonig to be taking pics, I'm not going to be helping out, i'm not going to be counseling. I'm just going to be a camper. Should be fun. Supposedly. That's what I'm told. But here's the thing, will it be a fun time had by all, or will it just be a lot of seminars and me being by myself a lot? I need coffee. Man, if I get enough coffee in me, I'll be awake and in more of a socializing mood. I won't be so inhibited. Lol. Funny, huh?
I remember watching this one episode of Scrubs and Elliot said that "you know, deep down every woman still has that insecure teenager in them". I wonder if it's true for guys too? Like do we ever lose that feeling of insecurity? Do we ever feel confident enough to not rely on people for self worth or confident enough that seeing everyone hang out without you not phaze you? Shrugs. I don't know. I'm twenty-two already and I still haven't figured this whole "life" thing out. I don't think we're supposed to. After all, if we're supposed to figure life out, than it means that we're supposed to stop relying on God. No, we should always rely on Him. Can we say "Thy Will Be Done?" Or is it "My will be done". Like P.Eug said, "Do you work for God or does God work for you?"
So in a coconut shell, I don't know what's going to happen at college camp. It's gonig to rain, at least that's what the weather says. But it's going to be nice, I guess. All I ask is for some quiet times with some friends. That's all. You know? Like I just want to have a moment with each of my friends there, a moment that lets me know that our friendship moved forward. There are times I feel my friendships with everyone is stagnanting, or plateauing. Like, is our friendship getting any stronger, any deeper? I really want it to. I really want to reach the point where I know we're both comfortable with each other and not like that I'm annoying you or interrupting something. There's that teenager talking again.
There's my daily grind for the day. Dunkin Donuts Coffee is the best. Can you believe it's been probably more than a year and I can still smell the Dunkin Donuts on 32nd and 5th in my mind's nose?