Sacrifice

I've been thinking a lot lately about what in my life is not necessarily pulling me away from God, but rather, is keeping me from being effective as a leader for God. What is keeping me from being the best I can be for him? One thing I experienced this past December was having a lot of money to bless others with. And it was probably one of the most generous times of my life and real times where I gave to the point of cost. Today, I realized that God truly has given me more than enough. I really should be much better with my finances. So I realized that indeed my money is not really my money - but I am a steward of God's money. So what is tehre that I have to give up, that I know I am spending too much on? Food is one. I know that I've been eating out a lot more and eating at expensive places on a regular basis. I can't believe taht I do this while others have to focus on keeping a P50 budget for meals while I don't mind spending P200 on a meal. I think it's because I grew up thinking that when you are working, you're allowed to live nicely and to splurge. But there is also the idea of being able to have the means to help the Kingdom when God asks me too. And at this point in time, I don't have that means.
So food, that's one thing that has to go. I think I'm going to have to ut back on comics at the end of this month. And I mean seriously cut back on comics. As in I'll drop my pull list to less than half I normally get. It's just not there anymore either. I used to come home with a stack of comics and just sit and read them. But now, well, I seem to not really care anymore. I got a TON of comics over Christmas and I've gone through half of them. And it's been almost two weeks. And I haven't been digging and pouring through them either. Comics are so hard to let go of because I tendt ot feel that that is what defines me. I love comics and I get a lot of inspiration from them. But i can get inspiration from places that don't cost as much. Basically, I normally get anywhere between 8-12 titles a month and a few random issues that look interesting here and there. So I'm thinking of dropping that down to 2-4 titles a month. Mind you, for someone who has been collecting comics seriously for the past 4 years, that is a hard thing to give up.
So I think I'm going to do it. It hurts. But the thing is that I want to be the best I can be for God. And it also means that I need to be a better steward of His finances. Keep me in prayer about this. And the goal is to start thsi in February. It's going to be hard.