So I just spend way too much money today on a haircut. You see, over the past several months, I've been trying out different barbershops because the barber we normally go to is all the way in Megamall. So I've been trying these other places in Robinsons so it will save me time. I honestly don't know why I saw my hair quality as a worthy exchange for not having to walk the 15min to Megamall. Every time I try these other shops, I always end up having a less than favorable haircut.
Today, I really wanted to get a nice haircut because it's going to be my birthday and it's important that I look good. I already have what I'm going to wear all laid out (yes, I actually have done that), and I just need the hair. So I decided to treat myself to a haircut at a well known "salon for men". And they told me the haircut I wanted wouldn't work, so they suggested another one. I said, sure, they should know what they are doing after all, they are the experts. Then they cut my hair. It looked...okay. But the more I looked in the mirror after I paid a big amount for the haircut, the more I realized that it wasn't....working. It was the "messy" look, which I didn't want.
Where did I turn? To the barber who has cut my hair since Spider-man 2 came out. Yes. Spider-man 2. That's how long June has been my barber...until recently. I went to him in Megamall and showed him my hair and he frowned seeing the mess that was made. "June, I need you, please fix my hair." And then he fixed it up and made it nice. While he was cutting my hair and fixing it up, I was thinking to myself, why do I go to other guys? Why do I try other barbers when this barber that I trust has NEVER given me a bad haircut. Ever.
In the same way, we do this with God so many times. We grow tired of always walking the Christian life, thinking it is more exciting somewhere else. They are having fun over there, we think, why am I still here? God hasn't given me that exciting thing that I wanted, so I'll go there where I can get it. Just like me thinking I could get a more exciting hair cut elsewhere. So we leave God and stop trusting in Him because we think that we know better and someone else or something else can provide better.
And then when the other thing fails, we don't run back to God, we keep going to other things. When we are at our worst, paying the price of living a life apart from God (to which Lewis said that God cannot give you any goodness apart from him because it doesn't exist), that's when we run to Him again and say, "God, save me, I need you, please fix my life." And God just shakes his head lovingly and fixes us up. And then we wonder why we ever wandered in the first place.
Hopefully, I stay loyal to my barber now and stop going to other places, and more importantly, trust in God rather than in other things.
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