It's just one of those days, I guess. Yesterday was an all around great day. Today, it started off great. Had my quiet time, got to put some exercising in, and even got to help someone out. I have a potential person I might be witnessing to soon. So in short - things should be good. I just, don't know. Everything seems off. I feel that the day is, it's liekt he calm before the storm, or as Abbey put it last night in conversation - the breath before the plunge. I like the swimming metaphor, it captures it better. Like I said before, I feel like Peter staring at teh water. Holding my breath. Will my feet go in the water or will I stand? I don't know. II feel like I'm holding my breath - waiting. Wating. Waiting. Can't move forward, can't move back. It's like when I was a young kid, back when cellphones were non existent, and I'd have to wait to meet up with someone. Just had to stand there and wait. Can't leave cause they might come, and can't stay cause they might be confused on the meeting spot. Waiting. Waiting. Waiting for what? For who? For when? *throws paper on teh floor* I just, don't know anymore.
What to do, you know? Just sit here? Wish I had someone to talk to right now. I might just spend time in prayer.
There is so much to get done today and I've done nothing! I'm trying to get things started, tryign to get my brain going, but nothing is happening. Maybe time in quiet and peace is what I need. Maybe I'm taking this blessing as a bad thing? Maybe God wants me to sit down and just be by myself with no work with just Him. Sigh. I'll try it. Let's give this time alone a shot. Sigh.
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